I don't know if I've ever mentioned this but I am, in fact, a film student. When people ask me why I'm studying film, I'm sometimes at a loss. I'm not one of those people who is driven to "get into the business". I'm not even really certain I want to make movies, although for the most part I've enjoyed the small student films I've worked on.
The thing is, I've never had a set career goal in mind. I'm not one of those people, like my oldest sister, who knew she wanted to be a teacher since the fifth grade. When it came time to choose a major a few years ago, towards the end of my career at UCSC, I was still as lost as the day I'd graduated high school. And now, three years later, I'm still just as lost, if not more so!
So for me, studying film is just learning more about something I love and appreciate: movies. Ever since I was a little girl, I have been so fascinated by them. They can affect me in very powerful ways, and when I see one I love, I can become completely swept away and immersed in it. I live, breath, eat and sleep it, I see the world through the eyes of its characters, I step to the beat of its soundtrack, and sometimes it can be very difficult to shake.
I'm not in the running to be the next Spielberg or Gondry or Ridley Scott. Nor would I want to be. I'm just curious, that's all.
