Rollin' rollin' rollin'

I don't know if I've ever mentioned this but I am, in fact, a film student. When people ask me why I'm studying film, I'm sometimes at a loss. I'm not one of those people who is driven to "get into the business". I'm not even really certain I want to make movies, although for the most part I've enjoyed the small student films I've worked on.

The thing is, I've never had a set career goal in mind. I'm not one of those people, like my oldest sister, who knew she wanted to be a teacher since the fifth grade. When it came time to choose a major a few years ago, towards the end of my career at UCSC, I was still as lost as the day I'd graduated high school. And now, three years later, I'm still just as lost, if not more so!

So for me, studying film is just learning more about something I love and appreciate: movies. Ever since I was a little girl, I have been so fascinated by them. They can affect me in very powerful ways, and when I see one I love, I can become completely swept away and immersed in it. I live, breath, eat and sleep it, I see the world through the eyes of its characters, I step to the beat of its soundtrack, and sometimes it can be very difficult to shake.

I'm not in the running to be the next Spielberg or Gondry or Ridley Scott. Nor would I want to be. I'm just curious, that's all.

How it's done:

My mother and two half-sisters (and a mysterious clown-faced little girl), Halloween on the Island where I grew up, 1970's. I have no idea what they're all supposed to be, but these pictures haunt me nonetheless, as do all the pictures my mother has saved from those long ago, far away times. Although, when you're out on the Island, they don't always feel so far away...

As for me, I'm not even sure I'll be going anywhere this year. Halloween has never been one of my favorite holidays. I can never think of a good costume, there's just too much pressure! And this year, being separated from my cache of amazing thrift stores has limited my options even further. Aaand I have work the next day. But I hear tell of a party somewhere including a T.Rex cover band, and if this be so, then clearly I have no choice but to attend!

If I had ever been here before I would probably know just what to do

It's really gotten quite nippy here (or as was en vogue to say in high scool "nipply"!) I just want to stay inside and snuggle down in my bed and listen to Crosby Stills Nash & Young. Is that so wrong? Haha. Fortunately, my mother knitted me this hat just in the knick of time. Thanks ma!

I fell asleep in the Language Lab today, while Italian dialogues concerning the likes and dislikes of blonde cousins and amiable grandmothers were piped into my ears. I hope my subconscious picked something up. Heaven knows my conscience is packed full these days.

There's a Spacelander waiting in the sky...

photo courtesy of escapetonewyork.com

Most! Incredible! Bicycle! Ever! Thank you Brooklyn Museum. And, if you haven't been to the Fifth Floor and the Visual Storage area, you don't know what you're missing. It's amazing in there, and creepy in the best, most fantastical ways.

Sunshine Go Away Today

A couple days ago it was still too hot to be wearing this. But now the rain has come, and I can't say I'm sorry. The sound of water falling on my little skylight is the most wonderful, comforting thing I can think of right now.


I got this amazing wrapping paper at RiteAid of all places! I wrapped Dagmar's present in it, but I'd really like to paper my walls with it. So glam! I think Sweet would approve?